Yes...some days more than others..
Saturday, 28 March 2020
LL
LL not for learners license but for lessons learnt.
Note to self:
If it didnt work out with you & someone during the period of your first interaction, quit trying to make it work years later! There's a reason it did not work in the first place. Just because you have aged & you think you're mature, you will not be able to turn things around,. The dynamics between you two will still be the same & no amount of maturity or patience will make things work!
I understand now with all the past life touch points in Feb & March!
While the past life ones are likely the ones who re-entered & so can be cut off again, there are others that are permanent fixtures and cant be cut off! Now thats a different game altogether. At the end of the day, blood is thicker than water.
Surrounded by so many but feeling alone as hell! Some days..!!!
Note to self:
If it didnt work out with you & someone during the period of your first interaction, quit trying to make it work years later! There's a reason it did not work in the first place. Just because you have aged & you think you're mature, you will not be able to turn things around,. The dynamics between you two will still be the same & no amount of maturity or patience will make things work!
I understand now with all the past life touch points in Feb & March!
While the past life ones are likely the ones who re-entered & so can be cut off again, there are others that are permanent fixtures and cant be cut off! Now thats a different game altogether. At the end of the day, blood is thicker than water.
Surrounded by so many but feeling alone as hell! Some days..!!!
Sunday, 8 March 2020
Bittersweet Feb
Marching away now at top speed & there's hardly time to reminisce... but I so badly felt the need to pause & look back at this beautiful month.
Its the month that united my parents. Its the month that gave me my daughters. & for all reasons other than the fact that its the only month with varying number of days, February is special.
& special it was this year with a lot of nostalgia inducing meetings. I met a lot of people from my past life! :D Well,7-15 years back does seem like a past life so different from right now!
First I met an old colleague-turned-great-friend from my first job. Meeting him after almost 12 years. He almost shed a tear when he realized that the tiny tot he captured through his lens is now a teenager. Not tears of joy but more tears of apprehension on how old we are! :D
Then I met another ex-colleague. We were so close. She's also my name-sake. Imagine bumping into someone after almost 8 years on your way to office - especially when both of us don't frequent that route!! What luck! We couldn't contain our excitement! People around us wondered what the hell was wrong with us - but ofcourse, we didn't care a damn!
& then I met the one lady I love, admire & respect so much since the day I met her. It was love at first sight for me!! :D The lady who delivered both my daughters. She's one of the busiest doctors around this part of the country at least. What really made my day... & month... & year (& some more) was the fact that she remembered my name!!! After meeting several thousands a month, to see me after seven years & remember my name - that is indeed special. Cant thank her enough for so many many things! She teaches me the joy of modesty & simplicity every time I meet her.
& finally I met up with some dear friends from college after almost 17-18 years! Now that was the definition of nostalgia. 3 guys, a girl & a pizza!! :D Super fun!
But ofcourse, as the title of this blog suggests - it wasn't all sweet. There were so many really sad instances that happened this month. So many sad stories and deaths with crazy, nasty fate destroying lives... Add to it the nonsense around corona. It just reminds you how fragile life is & how every moment is to be cherished.
So thank you February, for keeping the balance & helping me find the goodness in all the mess around. As I march into March, I have good memories to remind me that life's not just about being crazy busy but also being happy-alive.
Its the month that united my parents. Its the month that gave me my daughters. & for all reasons other than the fact that its the only month with varying number of days, February is special.
& special it was this year with a lot of nostalgia inducing meetings. I met a lot of people from my past life! :D Well,7-15 years back does seem like a past life so different from right now!
First I met an old colleague-turned-great-friend from my first job. Meeting him after almost 12 years. He almost shed a tear when he realized that the tiny tot he captured through his lens is now a teenager. Not tears of joy but more tears of apprehension on how old we are! :D
Then I met another ex-colleague. We were so close. She's also my name-sake. Imagine bumping into someone after almost 8 years on your way to office - especially when both of us don't frequent that route!! What luck! We couldn't contain our excitement! People around us wondered what the hell was wrong with us - but ofcourse, we didn't care a damn!
& then I met the one lady I love, admire & respect so much since the day I met her. It was love at first sight for me!! :D The lady who delivered both my daughters. She's one of the busiest doctors around this part of the country at least. What really made my day... & month... & year (& some more) was the fact that she remembered my name!!! After meeting several thousands a month, to see me after seven years & remember my name - that is indeed special. Cant thank her enough for so many many things! She teaches me the joy of modesty & simplicity every time I meet her.
& finally I met up with some dear friends from college after almost 17-18 years! Now that was the definition of nostalgia. 3 guys, a girl & a pizza!! :D Super fun!
But ofcourse, as the title of this blog suggests - it wasn't all sweet. There were so many really sad instances that happened this month. So many sad stories and deaths with crazy, nasty fate destroying lives... Add to it the nonsense around corona. It just reminds you how fragile life is & how every moment is to be cherished.
So thank you February, for keeping the balance & helping me find the goodness in all the mess around. As I march into March, I have good memories to remind me that life's not just about being crazy busy but also being happy-alive.
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