I'm all sleepy & I still want to stay awake & see this actor's wedding stills. Mom is talking about how to handle my maid & I love that she's here & she's talking to me... but at that moment I'm just annoyed that I cant see these pictures in peace. Just let me be mom... I almost scream! .. by which time I realize she has just started talking about the maid's past history. Something we find scandalous. My antennas are up, droopiness gone & there's no further interest in the poor actor who got married. (they all look so good-looking & in love. Ah! Actors of course! They can show any emotion & look convincing! judgmental me!) I want to hear more now but mom's sleepy. She's done. I don't want to leave her & she wonders why the sudden interest in her! :) She decides its too late to sit n chat! <sigh>
So what is it about scandal & bitching & gossiping that is so interesting? What is it about this that makes me feel good?! I must be a mean bitch. That's probably the only explanation but I'm not going to proclaim that in front of anyone!(or did I just do that??!!)
I'd really like to think of myself as a relatively nice person (I know there's a lot of ambiguity in that statement... on purpose).I'm not all that bad. But what would explain this bitchy behavior??
After my sis got married, my b-i-l influenced her so much, she lives out the life philosophies he's handed out to her. So while she was always interested in joining us for conversation now the difference is that nobody is allowed to complain. 'Why harbor all the negativity?' she asks! She feels that our family complains & gossips a lot. My take? Hullo!! how did you reach the conclusion that your family gossips a lot?? Doesn't that have the feel of complain/gossip. To each his own. You don't want to do it, just don't join in.
O yeah! Reminds me! I'm a bitch alright. I still don't have an explanation on my behavior.
Hmm... let me think. I'm not apologetic about what I am. I don't want to change. Might want to change in the future... but I don't know now. And guess what?! Gossip does make me happy. Why? Because it makes me feel that there are so many people out there with bigger, worse problems, that I'm not the only one who does silly mistakes in life, that others who judge me actually don't deserve to judge me & that those who looked down on me actually weren't very worthy beings themselves of any super status. It also takes my mind off my stress/worries/problems. What more do I need?!
So the bitch that I am, I definitely look forward to the day when I can sit with my 2 girls & bitch away ..& laugh & have fun. All you idealists out there... go on... your road to heaven is all evident. Enjoy your ride. We mortal sinners refuse to change!
So what is it about scandal & bitching & gossiping that is so interesting? What is it about this that makes me feel good?! I must be a mean bitch. That's probably the only explanation but I'm not going to proclaim that in front of anyone!(or did I just do that??!!)
I'd really like to think of myself as a relatively nice person (I know there's a lot of ambiguity in that statement... on purpose).I'm not all that bad. But what would explain this bitchy behavior??
After my sis got married, my b-i-l influenced her so much, she lives out the life philosophies he's handed out to her. So while she was always interested in joining us for conversation now the difference is that nobody is allowed to complain. 'Why harbor all the negativity?' she asks! She feels that our family complains & gossips a lot. My take? Hullo!! how did you reach the conclusion that your family gossips a lot?? Doesn't that have the feel of complain/gossip. To each his own. You don't want to do it, just don't join in.
O yeah! Reminds me! I'm a bitch alright. I still don't have an explanation on my behavior.
Hmm... let me think. I'm not apologetic about what I am. I don't want to change. Might want to change in the future... but I don't know now. And guess what?! Gossip does make me happy. Why? Because it makes me feel that there are so many people out there with bigger, worse problems, that I'm not the only one who does silly mistakes in life, that others who judge me actually don't deserve to judge me & that those who looked down on me actually weren't very worthy beings themselves of any super status. It also takes my mind off my stress/worries/problems. What more do I need?!
So the bitch that I am, I definitely look forward to the day when I can sit with my 2 girls & bitch away ..& laugh & have fun. All you idealists out there... go on... your road to heaven is all evident. Enjoy your ride. We mortal sinners refuse to change!
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